No matter how many times I go away, leaving you behind just doesn't get any easier.
This time, being on a mountain top in the middle of a jungle without phone, internet or message stick, I felt our separation more deeply than ever before.
What I want to say to you here is that I have fallen most deeply in love with you Butch, and this recent trip, more than any other, has affected me profoundly... it has shown me that I simply can't live a fulfilling life without you at its centre.
Missing you…
My strength is gone,
My world is dark,
I've no desire to breathe…
It all closes down,
And becomes so stark,
Come time for me to leave…
All warmth is chill,
All happiness tears,
Whenever I leave this place…
Life gives no thrill,
Eyes fill with tears,
For want of seeing your face…
I long to return,
I wish to stay,
And to have you here with me…
It's for you I yearn,
To share this day,
And give my love to thee.
Bear.
You inspire me.
You move me with your very presence and the beauty within your heart radiates and takes me into a warm and loving embrace.
I know I'm a clumsy old bear of very little brain and I struggle to find the words that express my feelings for you... but I'll happily spend the rest of my life showing you just how much I love you.
Bear.
